I look calm on the surface but boiling right below it. I don't need a reason to go from cold to hot. I feel like people are to blame for me being unhappy. My ex girlfriend who constantly pushed events even though she knew I had to focus on my study first and then think how we will meet. My father who sold flat that should have been mine not long before my grandmother was ill with cancer. My friend who never understood where I was coming from. My other mate told me I am week and that was not the case. I am working hard to finish study , get a good job and finally start being proud of my accomplishment. That's all I want. It is hard to be angry but it comes out of me .I pray to God. I hope I change.